I apologize for being so quiet, away and unreachable. Things have been crazy here.
I'll spare the details and just give cliff notes.
1.) I broke up with Logan. 2.) After being videoed and showing my psychiatrist, I have been diagnosed with yet another mental illness. Bringing my total to five. The newest being dissociative identity disorder. 3.) Got a new bun. Lola went to live with Brent. Got her at four months and that was about a month ago. 4.) Been sleeping a lot. I'm on max dose of all my meds and the Latuda x Gabapentin cross in particular has been kicking my ass. The others work in the background. Zoloft, Trintellix and Lamictal. 5.) Have been reclusing. Just haven't been social.
So. Yeah. That's where I've been. For those of you who are still around and still care about the bunnos, Sage is still alive and in good health. He's going on two years with me and he's about to be two and a half in December. :3
And, of course....
Bunno pictures!
Sage:
Phoenix:
I hope you all are doing well and finding reasons to smile.
I’m glad you’re achieving some health and happiness but don’t neglect more unusual sides of your character. I think there is much for you to explore discover create and provide.
@LookingForTheSummer I would never. I can respect people who do, but it's just not for me.
A.) I've struggled with hardcore substance abuse and knowing myself, I'd go back down that road eventually and find justifications for doing so.
B.) I've read some things that say psychedelic drugs would worsen some of the mental illness symptoms I'm trying to escape. Especially my hallucinations 😖
I've had a few people suggest I give up my meds and smoke weed, but everything I've read about THC reminds me why I won't do that either lol.
Although technically, I'm pumping poison into my body anyways with some of these meds.
@JadedJekyll I would never suggest you do that on your own. I think it won't hurt if you talk to an actual psychedelic therapist who has studied in this field and has a certificate.
Also, psychedelic therapy is even used to help people overcome their alcohol and drug addiction.
Again, I have to remind you that you need to talk to a professional and not do anything on your own. Be smart and stay safe. 🙂
@iamonfire696 She will want bloodwork first, unfortunately. She's the type of doctor to do bloodwork over EVERYTHING and run every test known to man on those tubes of blood lol
I have been on all those except the lamictal. I was always scared of the rashes. But yeah latuda can be a tough one too. Made me just want to work out. Which is def not me. Lol
@JadedJekyll The best way I've learned to deal with them is to treat them like any other person. If one is suicidal they are that way for a reason. Cause they are created to take the brunt of the abuse so they end up with trauma as well. So you have to help them through it if you can ever get them to a point where they can trust someone enough to open up about what they are going through. So yeah I you ever need to talk. Any of them too, I'll listen. It's hard but it's doable. Also leave a notebook out and give them a means to write or draw to be able to build communication with you. My ex hasn't really been bothered with it for years now. They seem to be all reintegrated now. Which is the goal of therapy for it.
@Renaci I appreciate the advice. My psychiatrist has found me a trauma therapist that I start working with in November. It's my hope that the dissociation and this alter me will become easier to control or live with as I go through it.
@JadedJekyll The main thing right now to is stay on top of the meds. That will actually to calm yours and the others emotions. Once those are more manageable is when the therapeutics and dealing with both of your traumas start.
