Henlo. I am still here. Sort of.

Hello, my dears, and dears I have yet to meet.

I apologize for being so quiet, away and unreachable. Things have been crazy here.

I'll spare the details and just give cliff notes.

1.) I broke up with Logan.
2.) After being videoed and showing my psychiatrist, I have been diagnosed with yet another mental illness. Bringing my total to five. The newest being dissociative identity disorder.
3.) Got a new bun. Lola went to live with Brent. Got her at four months and that was about a month ago.
4.) Been sleeping a lot. I'm on max dose of all my meds and the Latuda x Gabapentin cross in particular has been kicking my ass. The others work in the background. Zoloft, Trintellix and Lamictal.
5.) Have been reclusing. Just haven't been social.

So. Yeah. That's where I've been.
For those of you who are still around and still care about the bunnos, Sage is still alive and in good health. He's going on two years with me and he's about to be two and a half in December. :3

And, of course....

Bunno pictures!

Sage:

Phoenix:

I hope you all are doing well and finding reasons to smile.

💙Cyanide.

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iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

I am so glad you check in here to update. I wonder how you are doing.

I am sorry about the breakup and the new diagnosis but I am hoping the medication will help.

Phoenix is adorable 💜.

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 Hey Momma! How are you?

Yeah, it's rough, but I'm hanging in there.

She is a sweet bunno. She licks my hand lol

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy I am surviving. I am glad you’re hanging in there. I just want things to turn around for you 💜.

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 Well. Surviving is good. And as always, you can message me if you need to 💙💙💙

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy You can always message me too. Are the new meds going okay besides making you tired?

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 They're actually doing better together. Like. Zoloft has been there for 8 years and so has Gabapentin, but the others are newer and they all work well together. Save for the constant sleepiness.

I get dizzy and weak a lot too, but that's probably more from the severe anemia than anything else lol.

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy I hope the sleepiness will get better as your body acclimates to the meds.

I have bad anemia too, how do you treat yours? I am taking 450mg of elemental ferritin everyday. It’s easy on the stomach.

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 Thank you 💙 💙 💙

I am supposed to take 350mg ferritin something or other, but I don't take it. I'm on too many pills as it is already. I want to try to get iron from food and see if that helps. I bruise like a banana though lol

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy You should take the iron. You are at the point you can’t get that iron from good. I can’t, I am eating iron rich foods and taking my iron and I am still anemic.

It will give you some more energy. Just take care of yourself 💜.

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 I'll ask my doctor for a new script, then. I thought maybe I could get it from iron high foods.

Though, I should have know when she told me my iron was at a 20 and the iron saturation was 7 that it wasn't working lol.

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy Yes please do, there’s no shame in having to take a supplement especially if it’s gonna make you feel better.

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 I know there's no shame in it, I just didn't like having to be on so many pills 😭

But yes. I'll do that. She can't get me in until November though. Her next available was like... November 7th, last I checked.

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy I take lots of meds everyday. Like so many lol.

I am sorry you can’t get in until then. Is there any chance that she could just send in a script for it?

PhantasmOfEcstasy · F

@iamonfire696 She will want bloodwork first, unfortunately. She's the type of doctor to do bloodwork over EVERYTHING and run every test known to man on those tubes of blood lol

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@PhantasmOfEcstasy Well that is a good thing. I hope an appointment opens up sooner