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What is something you wish you could change about yourself?

I wish I could kill the heart and become cold. In time, I'll become the monster people want me to be.

I don't want to be the guy who's empathetic or the guy who gives his heart to end up shattered.
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Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@ExtremeNext There you go

BC
ExtremeNext · 36-40
@Beatbox34 lol thank you ✌️

SW-User
There's no point in wishing to be someone I'm not .

I'm a decent person with a big heart...why should I change that ? The only thing I did was give it to the wrong person ...lesson learned ...
SW-User
@zonavar68 exactly
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@SW-User Let me tell you this. You're amazing. You indeed are a person with a big heart.

Thank you for being here.
SW-User
@Beatbox34 Thank you
Beautywithin · 36-40, F
Too many things.
checkoutanytime · 41-45, M
I wish I knew how to tell people it doesn't have to be this way, but so many disregard me, even though I've lived it since I was 5, and I'm pushing 43.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@checkoutanytime you've tried hard. Don't blame yourself.
SW-User
Very much the same as you, although I can be very hard and cold on rare occasions. I don't want to ne the kind, helpful and empathetic guy anymore, it's lead to pain and frustration way too often
SW-User
It's better to be different and like you are.
But I understand.

I'm the same. So just try to stay a bit distant from what could be bad for me.
I’m not sorry about my capacity to love. I think that’s what makes us human. But I do wish I could let go of some anger and distrust that I’ve been carrying around. Not the cautiousness that serves me, but the occasional resentment that doesn’t.
Manfredthemanic · 16-17, M
I wish I didn't have anxiety.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Manfredthemanic Have you tried visiting a therapist?
Manfredthemanic · 16-17, M
@Beatbox34 Yes, I have a therapist, and things got worse. Now, I have a log of anxiety about medical things and bad social anxiety, but the medical part is new. 😔
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Manfredthemanic I hope it gets better for you.
zonavar68 · 56-60, M
My fear of being social, making friends, having relationships, and the whole sex/romance/intimacy thing.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@zonavar68 I don't blame you. I just keep myself away from romantic relationships with women.
Are you sure?

Do you want to be dead inside, doing extreme things just to feel some sense of emotion?

It starts off fun ....being free of conscience and empathy.....but a few years later you realise...nothing makes you feel alive. You disconnect even from yourself.

To the point....you'll do ANYTHING, just to feel again.

We never escape pain ....we just change its parameters😞🤷‍♀️
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@OogieBoogie Having been broken the way I am, I don't see any other option. It's 3:22 AM and I'm still awake. I would normally be drinking to numb it away but I didn't.

I'm so broken and someone broke me further today that I almost took my life away. I'm broken. I never want to feel anything anymore.
@Beatbox34 ohhhh....thats not a good way to be.

I get the hurt ....and the desire to just 'not want to live'.

But life is a continuing wheel of change.

Nothing last forever...not even misery and desperation.

Try and hold on ...sadness brings perspective to happiness.

even people who have everything still weep.

Its sad to hear you are suffering so badly right now 😞
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@OogieBoogie I'm really trying. I tried so hard for the past 30 years and honestly I realize I have a heart. The heart feels so much.

But if I didn't then it would be different. I never went to that extent ever but for me to consider it being at the brink of it didn't seem right.
ScarletWitch · 31-35, F
I wish I can finally die in peace
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@ScarletWitch We will in time. We will.
ScarletWitch · 31-35, F
@Beatbox34 it may not be peaceful unfortunately
bucktard · 41-45, M
i wish I had a smaller dieck
Incongruence · 31-35, F
I wish to be stupid and with a weak memory😐
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Incongruence I'm that. But my memory is sharp on certain aspects.
Incongruence · 31-35, F
@Beatbox34 oh I have a great memory too which is not doing any good
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Incongruence It can be a curse and I'm aware.
REMsleep · 41-45, F
Noone wants you to be a monster. Thats hurt talking. You can avoid being a push over but still open your heart. Discernment of the character of others is first. Don't share you heart with bad actors
SW-User
Hmmm, a lot of things and also absolutely nothing 😅
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@SW-User Understandable.
SW-User
Omgosh I was just about to post a question of "What do you wish"

😱
SW-User
Nothing rn. I like who I am

 
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