Why doesn’t it hurt anymore

Relapsed pretty recently. Cut deeper than I used to. Didn’t feel a thing. It made me weirdly upset that hurting myself didn’t hurt the way it was supposed to. Receiving pain is the one thing I can control, and if I lose that I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I’m so mad over it, I don’t know if I can even make it through one day of sobriety.

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assemblingaknob · 31-35, F

been there. you gotta stop. just gotta stop somehow, idk find an alternative. :(

Colonelmustardseed · 36-40

@assemblingaknob What was your healthy alternative? How were you able to stop?

assemblingaknob · 31-35, F

@Colonelmustardseed drawing, going out window shopping or spending time in a cafe, basically stay in public places and keep my hands busy. I was going out so much that the homeless folks all knew me and would say hi. If I had the urge at night, I would go on a mental health support chatroom and chat with others so my hands were busy typing. I'd chat aggressively, with more than 2 people at once so that t would always be typing.

assemblingaknob · 31-35, F

@Colonelmustardseed also, setting daily goals. I'd keep checking the boxes, it made me kinda happy to get shit done that I'd usually procrastinate on. Keep them hands busyyyyyyyyy

hartfire

There are more nerves in the second layer of skin than below it.

Dawgsfan3 · 41-45, M

😢

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