Sometimes I want to disappear off the face of the earth,

Sometimes I see beauty in the chaos. I try to see it more because in my understanding we learn by opposites. To appreciate and know love and happiness we must have experienced pain, sadness, disappointment, etc. we are all learning whether we know it or not, and our most troublesome times in life provide the greatest opportunities to heal, grow, and move forward. Finding balance is a challenge, but try to let your wounds be a place where light enters to heal.
When I was folding clothes with my daughter today who is almost 7, she complained about how much laundry was left. I pointed out how much we had already got done. It isn't about what we have left to do sometimes, or all that we must do in our crazy life schedules... Sometimes we need to look back on all that we have done and accomplished.

I hope you feel better. A lot has to do with mindset

If we always do what we've always done we'll always get what we've always got

Your story is the opposite of what your username suggests.

Why is my life not getting better? I have fibromyalgia, it makes me tired a lot, and I have a pituitary tumor I have to get removed. I'm not worried about the tumor, but I don't like it!

No!

Seeking a gf Lol

WHY?