Does anyone have any advice? :,)
Ok so, I made a new friend group at my new school Im going to (I started in the last term of last year). Now they are nice, but I dont feel like I can be myself around them. My friend group has 3 people not including me and 2 of them went to my old school. Im gonna give them all fake names just bcz. So the first one, lets call her Kaitlin, is someone I have been friends with for 7 years give or take. She made me feel really insecure of myself so much so that I bullied one of my best friends to make myself feel worthy of being her friend. It took me around a year to figure out how toxic i had become and i apologised to my friend (and sorta distanced myself from Kaitlin) and am still trying to make it up to them to this day. The next girl is Jaylah (im using a random name gen for this lmao), she and Kaitlin had been friends since year 7, and honestly I was hella jealous of their confidence, other than that theres not much more i feel is relevent. But the 3rd girl is someone i met on my first day (her fake name can be Yesenia bc yes) of this new school, she was also new and is just very nice, but i have this problem where if someones life seems better or worse than mine, i consider myself to be boring no matter what. I feel inferior simply because im not as outgoing and confident. Just today she texted our group chat (which has been inactive for like 2 months because we only talk at school) and asked if anyone was going to formal, which by the way, i didnt even know what that was about. I replied with "idk yet" as if i knew what she was talking about, and she responds with "do you even go here anymore? 😭" and bro that triggered me for some reason i cant even explain it, its such a simple, and honestly fair question yet it made me feel sick if that makes sense.
The reason i moved schools is because I struggled attending my old school to the point where the school had to get the department of education involved and even that didnt help. And after a ton of convincing my mum finally agreed to letting me go to a new school for a fresh start hoping I'd get my life back on track.
Anyway, this year, I want to try to get in a new friend group but I've been told I'm very hard to approach and that paired with the fact im terrifed of starting conversations with people I dont know makes it nearly impossible to make new friends. Part of me wishes i never moved schools but the other part of me knows I needed this fresh start. I just wish i knew how to break out of my shell and be more interesting.
So if you read this entire wall of words, itd mean sm to me if you could give any advice you have to offer bc im stressing ouuuuttt
The reason i moved schools is because I struggled attending my old school to the point where the school had to get the department of education involved and even that didnt help. And after a ton of convincing my mum finally agreed to letting me go to a new school for a fresh start hoping I'd get my life back on track.
Anyway, this year, I want to try to get in a new friend group but I've been told I'm very hard to approach and that paired with the fact im terrifed of starting conversations with people I dont know makes it nearly impossible to make new friends. Part of me wishes i never moved schools but the other part of me knows I needed this fresh start. I just wish i knew how to break out of my shell and be more interesting.
So if you read this entire wall of words, itd mean sm to me if you could give any advice you have to offer bc im stressing ouuuuttt
16-17, F