What do you think I should do? I need serious advice

My ex texted my little brother yesterday telling him that her mom passed away. We haven't spoken to each other since a nasty altercation on April 26th. She told my brother to tell my mom the news. When I heard, I called her from my brother's phone to extend my condolences and asked to be notified about the funeral arrangements.

The thing is, I just don't know if I want to really see her in that state, being all vulnerable and all. I am not over her yet and have been doing a lot to heal and seeing her like that WILL bring me back to square one and I CAN'T go back there. Dear god I just CAN'T.

I'm just wondering why she even reached out to my family and not me directly. I felt like she was trying to get my attention indirectly. I'm just conflicted and don't know what to do.