Is it too late to get my life together at 31*? Are the fun years over?
Turning 32 next month and as I look back on my life. I always wonder what happened to me. I live with my parents, no car or license and no girl friend. I feel everything went wrong at an early age, I always thought I was just shy. I did not know it was signs of depression and anxiety. All my life I have lived for other people, I always made myself available when people needed help. Those people took advantage of my kindness, and used me. I blame myself because I allowed it to get to that point. Had I focused on myself and my goals I would have been a lot better.
I have been working for the past 5-6 years but have little to nothing in my savings or checking. Been helping my parents out financially because my 3 older siblings are absolutely useless. I am the youngest of 4 kids, but I feel like I am the oldest. Not only do I support my parents, but my older siblings come to me to borrow money. Despite them having better jobs and pay than me. They just waste it on things they don't need.
Even though I have wasted a lot of money, mainly on escorts (about $6,000), liquor ($3,000) and food. I am trying to take the steps to better my life and myself. But it is hard to do when I have everyone depending on me. I get jealous and envious when I see my friends on social media having new expensive cars, their own apartments and family. I feel that could of been me if I had made better choices. I have many talents that I have wasted due to lack of support and money. I could of gone pro in football (soccer) but got no support from my parents, plus their were not much opportunities in the USA when I was younger.
I want to start my own company and really put myself out their. Not only for business, but for dating as well. I have had issues with people in the past when I played football. I have gotten into many heated arguments with people. They are my friends now, but my paranoia keeps telling me people are out to get me. That is why I am afraid to take pictures of myself and put it online.
Even though I am 31 (almost 32) I feel like I still have a lot to offer. But if I don't let go of my past and my fears nothing will change. I plan on moving out of NYC, and go to the Ohio. It is affordable and can really see myself living there. NYC is overrated and is becoming for the rich. I feel once I move from NYC, my life will be better.
I have been working for the past 5-6 years but have little to nothing in my savings or checking. Been helping my parents out financially because my 3 older siblings are absolutely useless. I am the youngest of 4 kids, but I feel like I am the oldest. Not only do I support my parents, but my older siblings come to me to borrow money. Despite them having better jobs and pay than me. They just waste it on things they don't need.
Even though I have wasted a lot of money, mainly on escorts (about $6,000), liquor ($3,000) and food. I am trying to take the steps to better my life and myself. But it is hard to do when I have everyone depending on me. I get jealous and envious when I see my friends on social media having new expensive cars, their own apartments and family. I feel that could of been me if I had made better choices. I have many talents that I have wasted due to lack of support and money. I could of gone pro in football (soccer) but got no support from my parents, plus their were not much opportunities in the USA when I was younger.
I want to start my own company and really put myself out their. Not only for business, but for dating as well. I have had issues with people in the past when I played football. I have gotten into many heated arguments with people. They are my friends now, but my paranoia keeps telling me people are out to get me. That is why I am afraid to take pictures of myself and put it online.
Even though I am 31 (almost 32) I feel like I still have a lot to offer. But if I don't let go of my past and my fears nothing will change. I plan on moving out of NYC, and go to the Ohio. It is affordable and can really see myself living there. NYC is overrated and is becoming for the rich. I feel once I move from NYC, my life will be better.
