i want to be free

this is sort of like a part 2 from my last post. i just really miss how life used to be. i miss my old self. earlier this year, at the end of January, an incident happened between me and my best friend (who is the closest person to me, besides my parents and such). then more things started to happen and life just went absolutely downhill. for the last 4 months up until now, I've been in the dark. I've dealt with relationship problems, friendship problems, death and more. its summertime now. i hope i can get out of this dark place and sadness i am in. i just want to be normal again

2018 is surely my worst year ever.

even though nothing "bad" is happening to me or in my life, i still find myself to be feeling sad and anxious...in the "darkness". :( i want to be free. life just isn't the same