i want to be free

this is sort of like a part 2 from my last post. i just really miss how life used to be. i miss my old self. earlier this year, at the end of January, an incident happened between me and my best friend (who is the closest person to me, besides my parents and such). then more things started to happen and life just went absolutely downhill. for the last 4 months up until now, I've been in the dark. I've dealt with relationship problems, friendship problems, death and more. its summertime now. i hope i can get out of this dark place and sadness i am in. i just want to be normal again

2018 is surely my worst year ever.

even though nothing "bad" is happening to me or in my life, i still find myself to be feeling sad and anxious...in the "darkness". :( i want to be free. life just isn't the same

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SW-User

There are some times that it feels everything comes crashing down around you, no matter what you do. For me, it takes a week or so before things get back to normal.

But sometimes, we have a month, or in rare cases, a year, where it feels you can't ever recover and you want to hole up and never surface again. This sounds like you're having a year like that. What I can say, is that it doesn't happen all the time. Even though it feels as though it's coming rapid fire and not allowing you time to breathe, it is not the 'new reality'. Try to take more time to recoup, but don't dwell on things too long. If you dwell, then the craziness also lingers.

LydiaStilinski · 22-25, F

its been a hard year. i just want to recover and find happiness again. to find myself and normalcy again :( @SW-User

SW-User

@LydiaStilinski Emotional healing takes time and patience, but you will get to what would be best described as a 'new' normal. You have a lot to still look forward to, try to refocus on your dreams and goals to bring you back quicker.

Xena1234 · 51-55, F

I know exactly how you feel. For three years in a row most everything in my life was a literal hell. Pain, aggravation, death, not enough money, on and on. Finally, it changed for 100 percent better starting this year because of a major choice, and a hell of a lot of determination and hard work on my part. Things really do happen for a reason, and our choices make all of the difference on how things will continue for us.

LydiaStilinski · 22-25, F

i'm still in high school. Really young. I'm almost 17 and I'm just so lost in life right now.

ExperienceDLT · M

My oppinion you feel this way because your mind is sort of stuck on the bad things that have happened you still think and ponder on those things so they in a way are haunting you try to find other things to occupy your mind do things that make you happy sports,music anything like that that you can enjoy get your mind focused on those things so you forget the things that are making you unhappy

LydiaStilinski · 22-25, F

this dark period of mine all stated bc of a few incidents that happened to me earlier this year. although they are over, i still seem to struggle with the sadness, depression, "darkness" almost everyday. I'm literally fighting my own emotions & mentality now. i just want to be happy again @ExperienceDLT

ExperienceDLT · M

@LydiaStilinski it can be hard I had a bad breakup with an ex gf it broke my heart I was so depressed I even thought of suicide but things can get better the first thing to concentrate on is you have to leave the past in the past you can not change what has happened what is done is done but your future can be whatever you make it