How about looking outward, instead? See what you have to offer to people who need someone. You start making someone else feel better and you may just discover that you're not so despicable after all. In every city and even small towns, there are volunteer organizations. Some even offer the opportunity to travel the world, all for free....free lodgings, free travel, free food, and the chance to feel good about yourself. You are young. Now is the time to think about these opportunities.