I want out because I don't love her like a husband should. I care about her as a person,as my partner and mother to my daughter but there is no attraction or desire for her. I am actually in love with someone else.
The reason I feel guilty is that I only married her because I was lonely and no one else wanted to be with me. Dating didn't come easily for me. When I met my wife I hadn't had a date with anyone for more than 3 years. Guess I just settle for her. We have been married for 20 years now and we have been sexless for more than half that time. I haven't been intimate with my wife since 2011. I find it very hard to talk to her because I find her intimidating and I fear her reactions and feelings. I don't stand up for myself because I am afraid of hurting her. I haven't worn my wedding ringing for more than a year now. She doesn't like that I don't wear it, but I think that is the way I should my unhappiness. Every time she asks me about it I freeze up in fear and say nothing. I need to defeat my fear and guilt to move on.
