I Hate Myself
I can feel myself slipping away. Back into the darkness. It's terrifying. I can feel it on the edges, threatening to take me over again. I wanna escape before it's too late. But I don't know. I don't know who to trust anymore. I don't even wanna talk to anyone anymore. I lost the desire to do anything with life. The only one I wanna talk to is him. But I'm terrified. What if I say the wrong thing? He could leave me again. I don't know how to live with that. And yet part of me is pushing even him away. Telling me I'm not good enough to be with him. And I'll never be good enough for anyone. I don't know what to do...I just want all of it to go away again.