A life inside the frame.Walls that protect and secure. The same walls that can also cage. Existence feels like it has the power to be expansive and confined all at once.
Whenever it feels like everyone is keeping their distance from me I try not to blame myself.Instead I just imagine they're all seeing the same therapist. And that therapist is a bastard. (1)
Nothing feels real to me anymore.All of my reactions, thoughts, emotions…I don’t feel like any of it belongs. Like I’ve taken over mid-consciousness and am supposed to try to just figure it out the rest of the way. I don’t know where any sense of my clarity has drifted. So hard to... See More »
Withdrawing and finding solace in the thoughts of personal satisfaction or comfort.The external distractions silenced and all that's left is the opportunity to bask in one's own personal existence. However, that very existence is where the pain and sickness lies. The realization may cause panic, even despair. The urge to make what... See More » (1)
Anger, pain, regret, fear--their takeover can be so consuming and draining that it's all I'm allowed to see even when reaching outward.It can snuff out the hope and love I see others trying to project towards me. It has the power to convince me that I should know nothing else. It takes me deeper and deeper...and I just let it. There's almost a twisted sort of comfort in its embrace.... See More » (1)
I truly do hate the kind of place I've seen my mind turn into this year.Not that it was ever going to be a paradise. But there was feeling like true progress had been made. There are always challenges and threats. I feel like I haven't put up much of a fight. Perhaps I've mustered all that I could muster but it just... See More »
Through solitude I have the power to embrace and simultaneously fear.Finding tranquility in the silence. Weathering the excruciating pain of absence. Riding recklessly through the twists and turns of self-reflection. Unexpected discoveries facing me down. The mind preparing itself for triumph or crushing defeat.
