Serious advice: Go adopt an old dog.. They will give you a reason to be. And you will give them a second chance.. And you wont believe the difference that will make.😷

Dear, I used to feel like you, always helping others, always being there for them and so on... It is extremely exhausting for us emphatic people to constantly care, constantly worry, constantly listen to others, it can overwhelm our well-being and put us in very depressing state of mind.
I used to wanting to end everything, tried professionals but as you just described it, "I just, can't...."
I kept on going and at some moment thoughts of wanting to disappear were just gone and now it is just existence, without feeling much you know...
What kept me in life is some "hope" that something in my life should happen that I deserve and from which I will be truly happy, for once in my life.
Still it did not happen but I am still waiting for it. It is what keeps me alive...
Keep fighting it and believe.
My prayers go to you.

I have ( Thankfully stopped a couple suicides )
though..

Do a Mind thought experiment
Sort of relax and meditate
Think of what things you like and enjoy

Then think back....
To 1st moment "You" feel... things went wrong
What-how You feel you could of changed

Now
Simply change and modify your ways
To Best Align with your Best self

We have the Power and Strength to Heal..to change

Happy Hollidays to All !!

[center]..and sadness builds
to cloud my eyes
til hope it yields
and all but dies..[/center]

Has these feelings been happening for long?

Find distractions. suicide is never the answer