I wish I could be religious

Grew up Catholic but as I grew older I became agnostic. But my dad only has weeks to live, from aggressive cancer. It's just breaking my heart and mind. I send out prayer type thoughts to the Universe that he can not be in pain as he faces these final days. I REALLY want an answer why there's so MUCH suffering in the world.

I wish I could just believe or feel he'll be going to Heaven and that his spirit will live in a peaceful place. Even talking about all this is a blur, he was diagnosed just two weeks ago. 😕 And to not be given chemo as a choice, it's been heartbreaking..(they said he is very compromised and the cancer is very aggressive, chemo can kill him ) I don't know how to view this all , when his passing comes..😟

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BlueSkyKing · M

“There are, after all, atheists who say they wish the fable were true but are unable to suspend the requisite disbelief, or who have relinquished belief only with regret. To this I reply: who wishes that there was a permanent, unalterable celestial despotism that subjected us to continual surveillance and could convict us of thought-crime, and who regarded us as its private property even after we died? How happy we ought to be, at the reflection that there exists not a shred of respectable evidence to support such a horrible hypothesis.”
― Christopher Hitchens, The Portable Atheist: Essential Readings for the Nonbeliever

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@BlueSkyKing Interesting , ty for sharing that. I have often thought too, for a God to say *You better love me, or you will have this or that repurcussion,* seems really NOT loving at all..but, you do so wish there were some answers that our spirit DOES live on in some place like Heaven. 🙁

BlueSkyKing · M

@Coralmist I have no reason for wishful thinking.