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I Cry A lot

My boyfriend has done a lot of unkind things to me. I have tried to forgot them and move on but they still really hurt me. The newest thing was. He told me after a fight I needed to lose weight because I will get fat. I am borderline over weight. Since then I lost 9 lbs. I feel like over the course of us dating he has destroyed my self confidence. He wants to move in together and start a life. I am losing attraction to him. I also realize i am depend on him. I am afraid no one else will like me and i'm afraid to leave. I'm working on losing the extra weight and spending more time on my appearance. I started self harming again and i'm very struggle with thoughts of hurting myself at times. I just feel heart broken and lost. idk.
Mellowgirl · 31-35, F
I have been there. And this is not healthy.
I used to write things desperately hoping someone had the solutions to resolve the problems I was facing.
But in actual fact the community of similar worlds /ep helped me to realise that no matter what I didn't deserve to be treated this way.

So I'm here to tell you the same.

How you feel right now doesn't need to be your everyday.
Your weight is not for him or anyone to judge.
Your self esteem doesn't need too be beaten down, it should be nurtured to help you flourish.
Starting a life under so much pressure and stress will only get worse.
He is not your problem to fix either.
As an adult we have to take responsibility for our own conduct.

In this instance he doesn't even deserve an explanation.

Pack up your things and go home to your parents, family and friends.
That's the love and comfort you deserve right now.

Good luck to you.

There's no way to try and justify his behaviour, and no excuse will do!

Run!
Cheesecake · 61-69, M
@Mellowgirl this! 👏
Mellowgirl · 31-35, F
@Cheesecake thank you ❤
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SW-User
he has destroyed my self confidence.
This is the kind of man you have to run away from, the fastest as possible. No one who loves will put you down and make you feel unattractive.
LadyBronte · 56-60, F
You deserve better.
Walk.
Adogslife · 61-69, M
@LadyBronte There literally isn’t a better answer.
LadyBronte · 56-60, F
@Adogslife Thanks.
Musicman · 61-69, MVIP
@LadyBronte I completely agree with you. Time to shake the dust from your sandals and move on.
Run, before you sentence yourself to a life of misery.
Fairydust · F
Leave him, you need a partner that loves you for who you are and doesn’t put you down or try to change you.

You need ti heal and work on your self worth, don’t settle. 🌷✨
SlaveEt · 36-40, F
Your loss of attraction to him is your self preservation trying to warn you, to protect you. Listen.

It sounds like it's time to be brave and jump ship before it sinks and drags you down too. If you don't have family or friends who can provide a soft landing, do an online search for local shelters and other resources. There are many kind, warm hearted and non judgemental strangers waiting for you to reach out and let them know they are needed. You don't have to do it alone.
Lostpoet · M
If he cared about you he'd buy you some sneakers and a juicer instead of complaining about your weight. He sounds abusive don't let anyone drag you down
JupiterDreams · 31-35
That's definitely not healthy for you and you deserve so much better. I understand you're worried about being alone but trust me, it's a lot better to be alone and safe and find the right man, rather than stay with someone that makes you feel like you have to be someone you're not.

You need to focus on yourself, for yourself. You need to work on your confidence and let him go.

You deserve so, so much better.
deadgerbil · 26-30
Being single is better than dealing with someone's bs like that
Zeusdelight · 61-69, M
We choose relationships.

We choose the people in our lives.

If they are not positive and supportive of us, they do not seem to be people we would choose.

It is good to forget about people's acts after they are out of our lives. We can move on from them and their acts then, not before.

Self-love is needed before other love.
Miram · 31-35, F
I read your earlier posts. In a couple of months, you have gone from praising him under false gratitude to realizing how he harms you.

Don't take steps back from this progress. No amount of sweet talking should make you forget that you need to break free.
Tumbleweed · F
Oh, sweetheart, you have to get away from him. This is abuse and he's toxic and he's only going to chip away at you til there's nothing left.
Cheesecake · 61-69, M
A partner should build you up, not shoot you down.
I'm sorry to say but he sounds like a narcissist who is trying to control you by making you feel bad about yourself.
Whatever you do, don't move in with him. He will then have you imprisoned.
You need to ditch him and work on self-love and self-care.
Just my thoughts. I sincerely wish you all the best for the future 🙏🏻
Justenjoyit · 61-69, M
People never change, the best thing for you is to find someone who likes you for being you, we all have our own weaknesses, strengths and inperfections.
Cheesecake · 61-69, M
@Spoiledbrat ha! I like your style 👏
You're just going to end up trading one eating disorder for another one if something doesn't change. You already know first hand that eating disorders aren't fun for anyone to struggle with.
laurieluvsit · 26-30, F
You need to get some counseling right away. Do that first thing tomorrow.

Don't think about doing it ...DO IT instead. Promise.
Houdini · 56-60, M
Don’t bother with him move on before you can’t he sounds like a wrong on.
TwistedApe · 51-55, M
You need to work on yourself. This has all the red flags of a toxic relationship. (Blieve me I have been in many). You would never be happy with him. This psycologist Dr. Ramnai has her own great you tube channel.

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MoveAlong · 70-79, M
Dump him but take him seriously on his suggestion to lose weight as you have evidently done. As you start to put it on at your age it becomes harder and harder to get it off. Don't let it become a lifelong problem that can contribute to poor health.

Oh yeah, they're are plenty of other men out there.
Pinkstarburst · 51-55, F
I am afraid no one else will like me

Sweet girl, HE doesn’t like you. You have to find your worth and realize you are better than his toxic words. If he moves in this will only get worse…HE will only get worse. Your strength is stronger than your fear.
Don't worry about losing weight, just lose the BF and find one that treats you better. This guy is abusive and only wants to lock in your relationship so he can do worse things
tfan123 · 46-50, M
Drop him and pull the ejection handle! Bail out while you can!
angie8819 · 56-60, F
Ditch him soon as you can he will be like that all the time
Cantsayno · 56-60, M
Let him go and find someone that appreciates being with you.
Teslin · M
RUN !! My opinion is he will never change.
Get away from him love . You don't deserve any of that .
katrinyjess11 · 22-25, F
ohh, leave him, you deserve better
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Cheesecake · 61-69, M
@HumanEarth I'd be scared! Good offer 👍
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