I Cry A lot

My boyfriend has done a lot of unkind things to me. I have tried to forgot them and move on but they still really hurt me. The newest thing was. He told me after a fight I needed to lose weight because I will get fat. I am borderline over weight. Since then I lost 9 lbs. I feel like over the course of us dating he has destroyed my self confidence. He wants to move in together and start a life. I am losing attraction to him. I also realize i am depend on him. I am afraid no one else will like me and i'm afraid to leave. I'm working on losing the extra weight and spending more time on my appearance. I started self harming again and i'm very struggle with thoughts of hurting myself at times. I just feel heart broken and lost. idk.

This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »

Mellowgirl · 31-35, F

I have been there. And this is not healthy.
I used to write things desperately hoping someone had the solutions to resolve the problems I was facing.
But in actual fact the community of similar worlds /ep helped me to realise that no matter what I didn't deserve to be treated this way.

So I'm here to tell you the same.

How you feel right now doesn't need to be your everyday.
Your weight is not for him or anyone to judge.
Your self esteem doesn't need too be beaten down, it should be nurtured to help you flourish.
Starting a life under so much pressure and stress will only get worse.
He is not your problem to fix either.
As an adult we have to take responsibility for our own conduct.

In this instance he doesn't even deserve an explanation.

Pack up your things and go home to your parents, family and friends.
That's the love and comfort you deserve right now.

Good luck to you.

There's no way to try and justify his behaviour, and no excuse will do!

Run!

Cheesecake · 61-69, M

@Mellowgirl this! 👏

Mellowgirl · 31-35, F

@Cheesecake thank you ❤

This comment is hidden. Show Comment