I'm just tired

And it's not just a physical tired. I feel it in my soul. I'm tired of always going through it. I'm tired of things not working out. I tried, but I'm done. It's not like an I don't want to live kind of thing. But I'm done. I'm physically and mentally exhausted.
It's a battle I've been fighting for a long time. It's a silent battle I keep from those around me, the people I love, the people that love me, and the people I want to love me... because who wants to love a broken person? If the people in my life knew how broken I am, would they even stay? So now I need to figure out how to fix this... or if it even can be fixed.


I just needed to vent a bit. I'm not looking for a pity party.