Just a thought
I remember when i was a kid it was a fight. Everyday was a fight be it a kid at school, my brother, my family etc... i really changed after an experience i won't get into when i was 7. Things like being touched or the concept of love really repulsed me and i started to becone hateful and angry.
It quickly became my goal to become strong so i could hurt anyone who hurt me and usually i would go overboard to teach a leason back. I use to hit myself in areas of my body if someone accidently touched me so i wouldnt have to feel what lingered. I really felt that love made people weak and to be strong a person had to suffer.
Eventually when i started going to therapy i was shown examples of the strong people in my life and other strong people through life that were able to be loving and kind. they are some of the strongest in the world used as examples and eventually i was able to drop my misguided beliefs and hate. Now i have grown so far to see how kindness is actually a strength and how loving doesnt make me weak.
It quickly became my goal to become strong so i could hurt anyone who hurt me and usually i would go overboard to teach a leason back. I use to hit myself in areas of my body if someone accidently touched me so i wouldnt have to feel what lingered. I really felt that love made people weak and to be strong a person had to suffer.
Eventually when i started going to therapy i was shown examples of the strong people in my life and other strong people through life that were able to be loving and kind. they are some of the strongest in the world used as examples and eventually i was able to drop my misguided beliefs and hate. Now i have grown so far to see how kindness is actually a strength and how loving doesnt make me weak.
