I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

I miss the past me. I was full of dreams and hopes. No one brought me down. I didn't care much. I was happy. But I wasn't a good person. I wish I could undo the things I did and at the same time I want to go back. I don't know who I am anymore. Emotions seem like illusions. Am I really feeling? Or was that just something I tell myself I should feel?

I wish I have the positive mind I had. I was full of hopes and dreams but those died. Now I'm just stuck, don't know what to do.