I Have Random Thoughts

i'm wrestling with the thought that i can get a better computer today for a 100$ but then run out of food and smokes later in the month and i'd suffer a lot plus the computer i have now is a bit slow and i'm still using XP Pro which is no longer supported by chrome and is somewhat back dated nowadays and i could use more memory and Video memory too , sh!t ! having second thoughts , i still need the money for other stuff ugh ! i hate being poor