I Have Random Thoughts

The loneliest feeling in the world is not being able to show anyone your truth because no one really cares. They want the funny outrageous me. The entertainment... The cheerleader...i uplift. But people ask how I am. If i tell the truth Im drama, depressing...a burden. No one cares to hear my story because then they might have to understand and I doubt most could.
Im just a human and a broken disaster of one.
Im always real. I just don't belong anywhere .

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Godislove · 26-30, F

I hear ya. It's difficult to find someone who cares to stay when you're yourself and even when you find people like that it can still be difficult to let down your guard.
Just yesterday I was on the phone with one of my brethren and I was having such a hard time, still am, and I almost hung up on her because I was about to start crying but she said she had to go before I did that. I just couldn't bring myself to know what would happen if I just let someone in.