I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

I feel everything is crushing down, as in everything. From my hopes and dreams down to my current situation. I don't know how long can I still hold on. I am so emotional these days. A lot is coming and seems like nothing is going or being solved.

I feel lost, I just hold on to God, but if these keeps going I don't if that is enough for me to be firm and strong. I'm a human, a woman, I feel so alone with everything that is happening.

Everyday I have to fake a smile and pretend to keep going as if I am not affected, but deep down inside, I am really bothered, maybe I am just so good at pretending that no one can noticed it. Maybe....

My thoughts are mixed. I don't know what to say anymore... I just want to blot it out without being judge by anyone...