I Have Random Thoughts

Way back in the mists of time, I used to smoke. The Lord and master devised a way of helping me in my struggle to give up (which wouldn't work for everyone) and many years ago, succeeded. Except that every now and then when I'm with the sister who smokes, and when he's not looking, I sometimes have a whole cigarette to myself. The odd gift of a pack of fags ensures that my prompts don't get on her nerves. But it's a dangerous game.

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Serenitree · F

Really? Once I quit for good, the first time I tried to smoke a cigarette, I got weak, sick, and dizzy, and then my throat closed up. It was as if I had developed an allergy over the course of six months.

damselfly · 100+, F

@Serenitree you get right over that

damselfly · 100+, F

@damselfly except for the sick and dizzy part

Serenitree · F

@damselfly well, I didn't try. I figured if my throat closed up it meant that either my brain or my body was trying to tell me something. I quit in October 1995. Tried to smoke in March, 1996 and never tried again.

damselfly · 100+, F

@Serenitree I didn't really try, either. One of my colleagues remarked, one Thursday afternoon, that I hadn't smoked all week. Usually being stuck at a keyboard with one tight deadline after another involved punctuating my day with at least one cigarette, burning itself down in an ashtray full of fag-ends. That's when I realised I was fine without them. But I think it's the habit rather than the drug that got to me. No withdrawal symptoms, and the ability to have one or two when I see others at it

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