Back here, not the same

A month ago, I had a near death experience. So many things changed in my life and I lost a dear family member. I decided to make another account here, since I deleted my account last year due to some problems, just to say goodbye to a dear friend on here. Idk, I thought, I didnt want to leave this world without him knowing how valuable our friendship was to me.
I checked his profile and realized his mom has passed away and it really broke my heart bc I wasnt there for him...he might have needed a friend and I wasnt there... that made me feel really bad and guilty. I didnt msg him, Idk..maybe I thought he had enough to worry abt...
So now Im here, and maybe I share some thoughts and feelings...maybe SW makes me feel better, like it used to...

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LadyGrace ·

My deepest and sincerest condolences. I definitely think you should reach out to your friend. We can't assume that your friend doesn't need you even now. But don't do it if you're going to disappear on this person again. You can tell him what happened and if he's any friend at all he will understand. Friends do. And you never know. He might miss you just as much as you miss him and this might make for an even closer relationship. People change, things happen. Then they see what is really valuable in life. Just don't assume you'll make things worse for this person. Maybe they have no one, you don't know. Maybe communication lacked in your last relationship but now you might realize more, that it's important to stay in touch with good friends.

I would like to ask you one question if I may. What did you learn from your near-death experience? I would like to hear about it if you would pm me, if you don't mind sharing it with me. And maybe it will even make you feel better, but if you don't want to it's okay. I'm curious about these things, but if you need a friend, I'm here if need to talk. I do hope and pray that you are healing. It takes a while, so take good care of yourself. ❤ 🫂

Foxygirl32 · 31-35, F

@LadyGrace thank u for ur lovely words.
Actually its so complicated between me and him.
About that experience , I go to the therapist every week and it takes a lot of my energy talking abt it and all. Im sorry but I cant go through that again. Its hard. But thank u dear friend for offering to hear me out❤