Back here, not the same

A month ago, I had a near death experience. So many things changed in my life and I lost a dear family member. I decided to make another account here, since I deleted my account last year due to some problems, just to say goodbye to a dear friend on here. Idk, I thought, I didnt want to leave this world without him knowing how valuable our friendship was to me.
I checked his profile and realized his mom has passed away and it really broke my heart bc I wasnt there for him...he might have needed a friend and I wasnt there... that made me feel really bad and guilty. I didnt msg him, Idk..maybe I thought he had enough to worry abt...
So now Im here, and maybe I share some thoughts and feelings...maybe SW makes me feel better, like it used to...

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WonderGirl · 41-45, F

In 2023, I was in the hospital. I didn't have my laptop or my phone. So for one month, I lost contact with my friends on the internet. When I got home and got back online, I found she had messaged me a few times while I was away. She had a drug problem with pain medications. I messaged her back a few times, but I got no response. Finally, a month later, her brother posted on her Facebook page that she had committed suicide, and I never got to talk to her. I felt horrible and still do to this day.

Foxygirl32 · 31-35, F

@WonderGirl Oh dear. That must have been tough...Im sorry for your experience.💓

WonderGirl · 41-45, F

@Foxygirl32 We were close internet friends. We lived in different parts of the country, but we would hang out almost every night and watch Netflix together, as well as other shows and movies. Many times, we would both fall asleep while on Skype and wake up the next morning still online. We were always there for each other.