Back here, not the same

A month ago, I had a near death experience. So many things changed in my life and I lost a dear family member. I decided to make another account here, since I deleted my account last year due to some problems, just to say goodbye to a dear friend on here. Idk, I thought, I didnt want to leave this world without him knowing how valuable our friendship was to me.
I checked his profile and realized his mom has passed away and it really broke my heart bc I wasnt there for him...he might have needed a friend and I wasnt there... that made me feel really bad and guilty. I didnt msg him, Idk..maybe I thought he had enough to worry abt...
So now Im here, and maybe I share some thoughts and feelings...maybe SW makes me feel better, like it used to...

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Pheartmaster · 31-35, M

I had a near death experience too, it changes your outlook on life. things taste and feel different but you're also more appreciative towards little things like a breeze during a hot summers day. Maybe you should message him

Foxygirl32 · 31-35, F

@Pheartmaster Idk. I think abt it but Im not sure...its very complicated

Pheartmaster · 31-35, M

@Foxygirl32 Atleast you'd have closure ?

Foxygirl32 · 31-35, F

@Pheartmaster yeah we did. I said goodbye to him.but u know, it was complicated

Pheartmaster · 31-35, M

@Foxygirl32 I've lost contact with friends for over 10 years. i took the first step to connect again and they were actually surprised since i went out my way to do so. they knew i tend to disappear for long times