How might you feel?

I recently explained to a good friend from 30 years ago, how I've been wanting to meet up with her but have not due to anxiety. We were best friend s aged 4-11 and when I moved an hour away at age 11, we lost touch. She found me years ago on FB and offered twice to meet up but I'm really nervous. I'm not who I was as a kid. I now have crippling PTSD and feel so broken. I don't know how I can really be a good friend. It doesn't help that another friend ditched me a few years ago after many years of friendship, Bec I wasn't moving up in life.

After I explained my anxiety, which I NEVER share with anyone IRL, she did put a reaction hug emoji but no text back to it. While I know some might not know what to say , I felt kind of low after revealing a huge part of me. Either she didn't know what to say or didn't believe me?
How might you feel?

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Younameit · F

She didn’t know what to say and didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable. On a side note, a good friend won’t mind about your traumas, ptsds , etc. , they will accept you as you are. You need to trust more in the good nature of people. People who reject others because they struggle with something like anxiety, shouldn’t be in your life in the first place.
A good friend will understand, accept, and not push boundaries, which exactly what she did. She didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable any further and withdrew.
Now it’s up to

you

resume that connection. The fact that she added you on FB 30 years later means that you were an important part of her life and that she misses you.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@Younameit That's true, she did say prior to me writing about my anxiety, that I am one of her oldest friends. Thank you 🌺