How might you feel?

I recently explained to a good friend from 30 years ago, how I've been wanting to meet up with her but have not due to anxiety. We were best friend s aged 4-11 and when I moved an hour away at age 11, we lost touch. She found me years ago on FB and offered twice to meet up but I'm really nervous. I'm not who I was as a kid. I now have crippling PTSD and feel so broken. I don't know how I can really be a good friend. It doesn't help that another friend ditched me a few years ago after many years of friendship, Bec I wasn't moving up in life.

After I explained my anxiety, which I NEVER share with anyone IRL, she did put a reaction hug emoji but no text back to it. While I know some might not know what to say , I felt kind of low after revealing a huge part of me. Either she didn't know what to say or didn't believe me?
How might you feel?

Lostpoet · M

I think she probably didn't know what to say. You should meet her and you already told her that you have PTSD so if you act out of character she'll know it's just that. You have to make steps though in life to be happier. Even if it causes you a little pain go have fun.