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TinyViolins 路 31-35, M
It's pretty brutal when people reject you or let your relationship fade away without giving any kind of warning or reason. They can just change their mind whenever they want and leave you to wonder what went wrong. It can be pretty soul-crushing, especially when you put forth a genuine effort. It makes you almost not want to try anymore.
On one hand, good riddance. If they didn't want to try to make things work then they just saved you the trouble of ending things yourself. It wasn't going to work out and now you're freed up to do something more productive with your time.
On the other hand, when it happens and keeps happening, you can't help but feel the fault lies somewhere within you. You don't feel like you're good enough and don't know what went wrong or what to do next time. You become self-conscious and either try too hard or become too clingy or whatever and put off weird vibes people don't feel comfortable with.
Either way, you just end up feeling like you can't win no matter what you try. I'm at a point where it's easier to just focus on yourself and let others come to you. If no one comes, then at least you did things that were personally rewarding. And if they do come, you know that you found someone that doesn't demand so much from you.
On one hand, good riddance. If they didn't want to try to make things work then they just saved you the trouble of ending things yourself. It wasn't going to work out and now you're freed up to do something more productive with your time.
On the other hand, when it happens and keeps happening, you can't help but feel the fault lies somewhere within you. You don't feel like you're good enough and don't know what went wrong or what to do next time. You become self-conscious and either try too hard or become too clingy or whatever and put off weird vibes people don't feel comfortable with.
Either way, you just end up feeling like you can't win no matter what you try. I'm at a point where it's easier to just focus on yourself and let others come to you. If no one comes, then at least you did things that were personally rewarding. And if they do come, you know that you found someone that doesn't demand so much from you.
dark548 路 M
love it can get complicated sometimes. That's why I've learned through experience how to suppress my emotions and trust no one but a very few selected group of people. I've become quite the master of my own emotions not perfect but I'm able to manage them on my own. Give a stranger an inch of emotion and you never know how they can manipulate you, there are some real psychos out there.
