humidtiddies · 22-25, F
they say self destruction portrays itself in many forms,
and I guess one of mine was loving you, when you clearly did not love me,
I began to ponder on why it hurt so much when you left, you were never really “there” anyways,
I cannot hate you for not loving me, but I can hate you for leading me on like a lost puppy,
This pain I’m feeling is a reflection of love that once was, and still is,
I’m sick of searching for affection in places where it simply does not belong, at the palms of those who simply cannot reciprocate,
This nothingness within me, is being drowned by more nothingness,
Love has meaning, you do not hurt somebody you love,
Love is not meant to be imprisioned, and that is what I forced myself to do, for the sake of having you in my life,
Even if that meant as nothing more than a meaningless friendship,
I am letting you go, and I’m in a much happier state of mind,
You’re no longer invading through the cracks of my mind,
No longer lingering on my heart, your venom is no longer in my veins,
I’m much happier here, with myself
I feel like I shouldn’t be posting this 💀
and I guess one of mine was loving you, when you clearly did not love me,
I began to ponder on why it hurt so much when you left, you were never really “there” anyways,
I cannot hate you for not loving me, but I can hate you for leading me on like a lost puppy,
This pain I’m feeling is a reflection of love that once was, and still is,
I’m sick of searching for affection in places where it simply does not belong, at the palms of those who simply cannot reciprocate,
This nothingness within me, is being drowned by more nothingness,
Love has meaning, you do not hurt somebody you love,
Love is not meant to be imprisioned, and that is what I forced myself to do, for the sake of having you in my life,
Even if that meant as nothing more than a meaningless friendship,
I am letting you go, and I’m in a much happier state of mind,
You’re no longer invading through the cracks of my mind,
No longer lingering on my heart, your venom is no longer in my veins,
I’m much happier here, with myself
I feel like I shouldn’t be posting this 💀
@humidtiddies this is growth. And it was a lovely read. I'm so happy you got outta there, yo 🤗
Straylight · 31-35, F
@humidtiddies Never regret writing how you feel.
poisonouscupcake · 22-25, F
i have a few
Blue
It's supposed to be my thing.
Why would you take that from me.
My acceptance was shredded,
my version of self love.
Why would you take that from me.
Sexuality wrapped around me like a flag,
my version of self love.
You stripped my flag.
Sexuality wrapped around me like a flag,
neverending protection.
You stripped my flag,
It lays upon the ground.
Neverending protection,
I can look upon my people and see strength.
It lays upon the ground,
the unaccepting cowering.
I can look upon my people and see strength,
they stand beside me.
The unaccepting cowering,
scared to break the mold that shrouds them.
It's supposed to be my thing.
Why would you take that from me.
My acceptance was shredded,
my version of self love.
Why would you take that from me.
Sexuality wrapped around me like a flag,
my version of self love.
You stripped my flag.
Sexuality wrapped around me like a flag,
neverending protection.
You stripped my flag,
It lays upon the ground.
Neverending protection,
I can look upon my people and see strength.
It lays upon the ground,
the unaccepting cowering.
I can look upon my people and see strength,
they stand beside me.
The unaccepting cowering,
scared to break the mold that shrouds them.
Oh flute!
The ambassador
of the heartbeat.
The way your legs
soar in the air.
The dance of your soul
and the sunshine it brings.
Your silver and length
caress the melodies
of the heaven above.
What must you be
besides the promise
of life for thee.
The ambassador
of the heartbeat.
The way your legs
soar in the air.
The dance of your soul
and the sunshine it brings.
Your silver and length
caress the melodies
of the heaven above.
What must you be
besides the promise
of life for thee.
Silence. Silence is the car ride home after his death everything feels motionless. I feel motionless numbness rests comfortably on my shoulders my mind wanders blankly. I should be crying. I should be sad. I should I should I should, but nothing. Silence is the walk to class. Frigid temperatures nip at skin as I walk preoccupied. The air is filled with ice but I don’t notice, I am too busy. Busy thinking about how I will survive. Sure there is nothing to be worried about now, but there will be; there’s always something. I worry and worry as my brain, much used to the continuous feeling of anxiety and dread, seemingly runs on autopilot. It feels like I’m not even blinking, my feet don’t feel like they touch the ground as I speed cutting it close. My legs don’t even feel the burn as I don’t feel my own.
Straylight · 31-35, F
@poisonouscupcake You're so expressive. They all feel different and unique.
Paintedfox · 36-40, F
assemblingaknob · 31-35, F
@Paintedfox That's beautiful
@Paintedfox I really love it 🧡
It's beautiful
It's beautiful
kodiac · 22-25, M
Kind of dark but real.
The eyes of Markus
Two young boys face down
on a cold stone floor
it's the first time for me
Markus has been here before
he lies next to me
close enough to touch
never been this scared
never this much
two priestly demons
in dark black robes
move up from behind
what happens next
shatters my mind
the pain is immense
burning and hot
i hang onto sanity
with all that i've got
strangled cries
ripped from my soul
small body twisted
in a desperate roll
turning my head
i see his eyes
somehow stopping
both time and space
Markus is with me
in this horrible place
his eyes warm and clear
bear no trace
of pain or fear
pulling me in
into his light
carry me Markus
through this dark night
they ravage his body
he makes not a sound
i can't find in me
the strength he has found
as the pain peaks
it's all too much
then in the dark
i feel a touch
as markus whispers
he grasps my hand
hold on Kodi
we make a stand
the pain seems to last
all through the night
then in the stained glass
tinted morning light
i hear a voice say
bring the black boy
he is up and away
i've not seen Markus
since that terrible night
but lately when i wake
and stifle my cries
i still remember the light
i found in his eyes
The eyes of Markus
Two young boys face down
on a cold stone floor
it's the first time for me
Markus has been here before
he lies next to me
close enough to touch
never been this scared
never this much
two priestly demons
in dark black robes
move up from behind
what happens next
shatters my mind
the pain is immense
burning and hot
i hang onto sanity
with all that i've got
strangled cries
ripped from my soul
small body twisted
in a desperate roll
turning my head
i see his eyes
somehow stopping
both time and space
Markus is with me
in this horrible place
his eyes warm and clear
bear no trace
of pain or fear
pulling me in
into his light
carry me Markus
through this dark night
they ravage his body
he makes not a sound
i can't find in me
the strength he has found
as the pain peaks
it's all too much
then in the dark
i feel a touch
as markus whispers
he grasps my hand
hold on Kodi
we make a stand
the pain seems to last
all through the night
then in the stained glass
tinted morning light
i hear a voice say
bring the black boy
he is up and away
i've not seen Markus
since that terrible night
but lately when i wake
and stifle my cries
i still remember the light
i found in his eyes
thepeculiarpanda · 36-40, M
"Oh Well" (C.O. 14.10.2020)
I've been holding my tongue for what feels like months
and if I don't let go, it might explode
Then I'd be weaponless;
there goes by best defense.
No sacred powers;
just more hours to try and keep my brain at bay.
It's so contained,
yet easily dismayed.
It's exhausting,
and I'm over this and done,
but this train's still running off the rails-
oh well.
Here's all my feelings enclosed:
just rip that envelope,
and read the letter before you burn it all.
Then close your bedroom door;
I can't watch anymore.
You're losing sight of all the things
that made your life worth living.
You're so contained,
and so battered and frayed.
Just exhausted,
and you're over this and done.
They swore it'd be so much fun-
oh well.
I'm so afraid,
and always too restrained.
I'm exhausted,
and I hope I make it home.
This feels like a neverending hell-
oh well.
I've been holding my tongue for what feels like months
and if I don't let go, it might explode
Then I'd be weaponless;
there goes by best defense.
No sacred powers;
just more hours to try and keep my brain at bay.
It's so contained,
yet easily dismayed.
It's exhausting,
and I'm over this and done,
but this train's still running off the rails-
oh well.
Here's all my feelings enclosed:
just rip that envelope,
and read the letter before you burn it all.
Then close your bedroom door;
I can't watch anymore.
You're losing sight of all the things
that made your life worth living.
You're so contained,
and so battered and frayed.
Just exhausted,
and you're over this and done.
They swore it'd be so much fun-
oh well.
I'm so afraid,
and always too restrained.
I'm exhausted,
and I hope I make it home.
This feels like a neverending hell-
oh well.
@thepeculiarpanda I hope you're outta there bro
Straylight · 31-35, F
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Straylight · 31-35, F
@TheBlackPowerRanger The oldest ones are a little short, but I got into a groove.
@Straylight I dig it
@Straylight I gotta read more of them 😄
@MrWalker 😂
nice word play
nice word play
@SW-User go ahead :3
I honestly am open to any ideas and don't want ya feeling shy of sharing something cuz of what other people think
I honestly am open to any ideas and don't want ya feeling shy of sharing something cuz of what other people think
SW-User
@TheBlackPowerRanger lol weeell, where do I start with my antivaxx memes and conspiracy stuff 🤔🤔🤔🤔 eerr never mind. You deserve a break 😁
@SW-User aw man XD
I love thinking about conspiracy theories yo
And I LOVE memes ;-;
It's like you flashed a cookie at me and took it back
I love thinking about conspiracy theories yo
And I LOVE memes ;-;
It's like you flashed a cookie at me and took it back
assemblingaknob · 31-35, F
@assemblingaknob >__>
Ur book is gunna scare me gurl
Ur book is gunna scare me gurl
assemblingaknob · 31-35, F
@TheBlackPowerRanger it's all in the rhyme and rhythm baby. 😌
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Straylight · 31-35, F
@HijabaDabbaDoo Please post it here!
@HijabaDabbaDoo I actually laughed and enjoyed it 😂
Donotfolowme · 51-55, F
@Donotfolowme you tell me gurl :v