Can you share anything you've written with me?

they say self destruction portrays itself in many forms,
and I guess one of mine was loving you, when you clearly did not love me,
I began to ponder on why it hurt so much when you left, you were never really “there” anyways,
I cannot hate you for not loving me, but I can hate you for leading me on like a lost puppy,
This pain I’m feeling is a reflection of love that once was, and still is,
I’m sick of searching for affection in places where it simply does not belong, at the palms of those who simply cannot reciprocate,
This nothingness within me, is being drowned by more nothingness,
Love has meaning, you do not hurt somebody you love,
Love is not meant to be imprisioned, and that is what I forced myself to do, for the sake of having you in my life,
Even if that meant as nothing more than a meaningless friendship,
I am letting you go, and I’m in a much happier state of mind,
You’re no longer invading through the cracks of my mind,
No longer lingering on my heart, your venom is no longer in my veins,
I’m much happier here, with myself

I feel like I shouldn’t be posting this 💀