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If you had true family, it would never feel awkward for you. Having said that, my advice would be to avoid family, which means stay at home or be with friends whom you don't feel awkward around. That aspect of your family dynamic will never change, so why put yourself through the agony of pretending, while only appeasing the desires of someone else's whims. Put yourself first, always.