why cant i be normal?

why do i do everything wrong, im never enough, im never gonna be what my mom wants me to be, im not straight, why cant i be straight? why cant i like basic normal stuff so my mom wouldn’t hate me? why?? why can’t i be extroverted to be cool and have friends and go to parties like a normal teenager? why cant i be pretty like every single other girl? why cant i be happy? i hate myself, i hate how i look how i act and how people see me… sometimes i wish i was dead, everything would be better without me, i just want to be normal, to be loved, to be me… why cant i just like a sport or just makeup? why can’t i be whiter and have straight hair like my mom? why im i so ugly and pathetic and god im just a big loser and now that im going to another school its worse, i wish i wasn’t alive, why cant i just be normal????? why cant i like normal stuff like everyone else??? why doe y mom think im depressing? why??????????

Nihiless

You care about what people think of you and what society expects of you that is your problem. Stop comparing yourself to other people and focus on yourself, what you want and what you are, there is only one of you. When you move out you don't need to keep in contact with your mom if that's what you want. Think about your own beliefs and values because they're the only things that matter to you.