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@SW-User I think you’re exactly right tbh

@ChiefJustWalks Yeah, I think needing a little time to process and think things through can be healthy but I also need to be able to talk and be vulnerable rather than just keeping it all in and avoiding it like I typically do. Because then I get resentment for feeling like no one’s there for me when I won’t let anyone be there for me. 🙈

I don’t imagine myself ever ghosting you.

@Stark yeah that makes sense. I think with most people I typically push everyone away & close myself off. We call people friends yet we don't let them be there for us 🤷 even one of my closest friends recently asked me "how have you been a friend to me lately?" & I know she's upset that I haven't been responding to her even though she said before that she understands. It's tough sometimes.

It just that we think a lot & process things in our own heads. We appreciate empathy but we don't know how to accept it. So you just give, give, give, until you run out & close up shop

@StevetheSleeve I think that’s apart of how I few it considering how I use to take my emotions out on other when I was upset. 🤔

@nightjourney I’m surprised by how many react in the same way.

@caccoon I feel like it’s a way of me dealing with my emotions and trying to understand them rather than lashing out and doing/saying something I regret, because I use to do that a lot under distress. So, now im always fearful of that so I just shut down instead. But, I think like talktomenice mentioned I still have to learn how to be vulnerable and open up to some people which is something I struggle with because im embarrassed by how I feel.

@Lilnonames one day when I was depressed I took a long hike and the place looked a lot like this (:

@Stark it's nice and I pick blackberries