I'm a Loner Most of the Time

I am living in this country for years and have almost no friends. I came here because I was in love but we divorced 2 years ago and now is me and the kids. They are with their dad half week.
I noticed that I am alone a lot. Sometimes I feel like I would like a relationship. And meeting new atractive men or any men is easy. But I am awkward person. I am friendly and probably my looks are enough to make a guy to be interested but the way I think and see world is different.
And sometimes I feel connection and talk to the guy a lot and become clingy or so. That is when it always goes wrong. Because I get heartbroken. Like now I was just talking to one guy. He was trying really hard to make contact with me. So I opened up a bit and talked to him for few days and now he became so cold.
And I know I get weird life story. Really. My past is full of struggle. My dad criminal. Dangerous ex... lot drama.

But this what men do. They like you and than they act friendly and suddenly they are ice cold and so.. it really keeps breaking my heart

DreamCoCreators · 36-40, M

This is really sad but I don't have much to add :( only that I talk to people. Not for relationships but to help them out. For some people it's a way of life and to be shut out from day 1 is sometimes upsetting - though understandable.

DiamondPrincess89 · 31-35, F

I understand how you feel. This is part of the reason why I try my hardest not to be too open with guys. Yes, I'll still enjoy their company and be honest, but I'm not going to give 100% from the get-go. He has to make it clear that he likes me (even as a friend). Otherwise, there's only room for disaster.

Montivagant · 36-40, M

Sad to hear, I'm sure the right guy is out there, just hard to find without getting hurt. I'm probably going to find the same thing once I get through my current heartbreak.