If you've come from a hard background, not shown love or regard for other people..
is your behaviour in society really your fault or do you not know any different?
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AlchemyFox · 36-40, F
This is a tough question.
Some people you can see it clearly. They've been treated like crap by life and it made them cold. Some people are so sweet you'd never know what they've been through and overcome.
I have tried to stay sweet, but it's not working anymore. Things have piled up, people abandoned me when I needed them most. I think I have become cold. I don't socialize at all anymore. I try to block the world around me out because I'm too vulnerable to the petty shit. I have no support. Fighting cancer alone. I think about my future and wonder if I'll die young like my parents... Who will be there for my son? It's all a bit too much.
So I don't make an effort with people. I can't risk the pain. And people are SO easy to push away, it's even more sad. Not that I blame them. Nobody with a positive, happy life is going to want to be around me. Not because I can't smile and laugh, but because I'm struggling and having bad days. People don't want it. So I stand like stone. Alone.
Some people you can see it clearly. They've been treated like crap by life and it made them cold. Some people are so sweet you'd never know what they've been through and overcome.
I have tried to stay sweet, but it's not working anymore. Things have piled up, people abandoned me when I needed them most. I think I have become cold. I don't socialize at all anymore. I try to block the world around me out because I'm too vulnerable to the petty shit. I have no support. Fighting cancer alone. I think about my future and wonder if I'll die young like my parents... Who will be there for my son? It's all a bit too much.
So I don't make an effort with people. I can't risk the pain. And people are SO easy to push away, it's even more sad. Not that I blame them. Nobody with a positive, happy life is going to want to be around me. Not because I can't smile and laugh, but because I'm struggling and having bad days. People don't want it. So I stand like stone. Alone.
