How do I speak when I get easily emotional

I have a problem of pushing down my feelings and never addressing it. This time I messed up and I have to say sorry to the person. I genuinely want to explain everything that's going on and apologize but I find it hard.

Even if it's an old problem that I haven't thought about for years, just the thought of opening my mouth to say anything about it makes me cry. In the end, I just cry and choke on my tears and can barely say anything comprehensible and instead sound like a toddler having a tantrum. That is why I rarely to never open up to someone because that's all I end up doing, just sob into such a mess.

Help me.

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SW-User

I suppose you should probably try and get used to talking about issues from your past (I understand that may be incredibly difficult) or maybe practice what you want to say in a mirror. with time things like talking about difficult subjects becomes easier. but if you continue to push them down, then it'll only be harder when you have to address them.

Chops · 18-21, F

@SW-User How do I ease into that? Because I really have a hard time and cannot verbally say anything when I think about my issues

SW-User

@Chops I'd start light. maybe if something bothers or annoys you during the day, mention it to yourself. like when you have a moment alone just whisper to yourself what bothered you. through doing that you'll stop yourself from hopefully bottling anything else up and eventually you'll be able to talk about more challenging topics. like it can be literally anything at first, no matter how small or insignificant. that's just what I would do though.

Chops · 18-21, F

@SW-User Oh I see, thank you for the advice

SW-User

@Chops sure thing.