Manicuring my lady garden for me 🖤

I'm doing good. I know I'm making progress anyway. I know there are things that are inherently me and aren't perfect, but I'm still worth it.

I only get lonely on occasion.

So yeah, I'm good.

I've found some middle ground, where I don't expect anything, I just do what I can. I create small sparks of joy and even when they fizzle out, I'm only pleased, that after all I've been through, I am still me.

It was never really me that had a problem with me. I wanted to be loved. My childhood was devoid of important pieces, and I don't feel bad for wanting someone to love me. It was never about loving myself first. The truth is I deserve to be loved. And I don't need to do anything at all to earn it. I deserve it now. I simply can't settle for the love that I've grown accustomed to. Conditional love. Garbage.

But I'm chilling, feeling like a fresh smooth dolphin. Just because 🖤

SageWanderer · 70-79, M

It sounds to me your getting self care down pat. Nothing wrong with pampering yourself if no one is in the picture to do it for you. As for myself, I try to make it a nightly ritual. A little self care goes a long way.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SageWanderer and doing it just for me feels really good. I think for a long time I took care of myself so I would be better for others. Doing it for my own satisfaction is new to me.

SageWanderer · 70-79, M

@ScreamingFox It was hard for me to do self care after being a caretaker. Besides feeling selfish it also seemed a bit taboo to indulge myself. And we deserve some satisfaction in life, even if it’s our own doing.