Manicuring my lady garden for me 🖤
I'm doing good. I know I'm making progress anyway. I know there are things that are inherently me and aren't perfect, but I'm still worth it.
I only get lonely on occasion.
So yeah, I'm good.
I've found some middle ground, where I don't expect anything, I just do what I can. I create small sparks of joy and even when they fizzle out, I'm only pleased, that after all I've been through, I am still me.
It was never really me that had a problem with me. I wanted to be loved. My childhood was devoid of important pieces, and I don't feel bad for wanting someone to love me. It was never about loving myself first. The truth is I deserve to be loved. And I don't need to do anything at all to earn it. I deserve it now. I simply can't settle for the love that I've grown accustomed to. Conditional love. Garbage.
But I'm chilling, feeling like a fresh smooth dolphin. Just because 🖤
I only get lonely on occasion.
So yeah, I'm good.
I've found some middle ground, where I don't expect anything, I just do what I can. I create small sparks of joy and even when they fizzle out, I'm only pleased, that after all I've been through, I am still me.
It was never really me that had a problem with me. I wanted to be loved. My childhood was devoid of important pieces, and I don't feel bad for wanting someone to love me. It was never about loving myself first. The truth is I deserve to be loved. And I don't need to do anything at all to earn it. I deserve it now. I simply can't settle for the love that I've grown accustomed to. Conditional love. Garbage.
But I'm chilling, feeling like a fresh smooth dolphin. Just because 🖤
41-45, F
