change in my personality over the last several weeks. At first, I thought it might be due to early dementia, but now I am not so sure. I researched the personality changes associated with dementia, and mine are different. 🤔
When I was 2 years old, my mother put my baby brother in my arms and told me that I was now a mom. She was serious. I was beaten any time my little brother bothered my mother from that day forward. I became a very serious child, teen, young adult, and older adult. I never had time to play ever in my life. If anyone in my life needed something from me, I would stop doing whatever I was doing and take care of them. I stopped having friends outside of family, hobbies, or anything that I would not be able to drop and take care of others,in my family, immediately. 👍
Responsible, that is what I have always been. Responsible for EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in my life. Therapist have told me that I was the only adult in my family of origin( my mother, brother, and I). My mother and grandmother are fond of saying how I was born old. I never smiled. I was always serious. Becoming an adult at 2 years old makes over take evey thing very serious.🤷♀
Well, I could go on and on about all that, but I don't want to waste the time. Moving forward to now. About 7 weeks ago, I found out that I love hobbies. I started hobbies for two reasons. First, I forgot how to zip my coat for a whole day, and I had to start doing things to exercise my mind. Second, my daughter wouldn't accept(for her whole life) that I didn't have a creative bone in my body, and she got me a diamond gem art kit. After watching her do it for awhile I started to get interested, and now I just can't stop. I also do latch hook rugs now.❤
The problem is that I no longer want to do anything that I don't find fun. I have learned, very recently, how to enjoy some of life, and I don't want to be responsible anymore. I mean, I have to be to a certain point, but any infringement upon my hobby time makes me cranky now. This is a 180 percent change in my personality. I know personality changes are an early sign of dementia, but when I researched it, it seemed to me that negative changes are what are considered to be related to dementia. I don't know whether what I'm experiencing is a negative change.🤷♀
