TAKING PILLS TO NOT BE IN HELL

iswear schizophrenics have it bad.. its no joke we're disabled.. but look like we're just slow or dim and the hurt we feel when the medication hits cant be surpassed by the ostrification from the church. I understand snd God doesnt .. he didn't ever live as a mentally deranged person.even when the pills work, all tha time being tortured mentally is gone and my life is genethicaly gone do to some part of.. i have it for no reason. My relationship with God stresses my pain and it consumes my plight from this disease