do you think having ptsd makes you weak, inferior & ridiculous

i deal with ptsd , or try to deal with ptsd because of trauma from my past long ago, i was assailed quite a few times because i used to have trouble controlling anger outbursts in public places, i lived in rough areas at the time and was violently attacked a few times.....in one incident i was hit over the skull with a wooden batton by three youths, i got stitches in my head....

so fast forward to now and i suffer with ptsd episodes a lot....especially when i have to go out in public places...at times i'm a nervous wreck, easily startled and panicked and its a real FIGHT to hold my composure together...i get flash backs too.

all i want to be is strong and confident, but with this ptsd problem it makes me feel like i'm being weak & inferior?

i don't want to be all over the place and a nervous wreck....what do you think?

Beautyinbroken · 36-40, F

I dont think it makes you weak at all honestly i take meds i did have some unhealthy coping mechanism but im trying to find some healthy ones and not go back to the bad ones

durinsBane1983 · 46-50, M

@Beautyinbrokenglad you found a way through it and are coping better, thanks for answering & merry xmas.