So sick of this shit
I have turned my dad down time and time again to "hang out". I had a whole talk with my parents setting boundaries and saying I needed space. Every single week since practically. They have totally ignored my boundaries and requests to be left alone and still are trying to get me to spend time with them to solve their problems for them!!
They do NOT just want to spend time with me!! They want to keep using me as a therapist and nurse and marital counselor and whatever else! Every time I have told my dad I didn't want to hang out he would say "well I was just going to talk about the doctor we are having your mom see" or "I wanted your opinion on this..." etc. I don't give a shit!! I am not doing all that for them anymore!!
The last week he texted me asking to get lunch. I told him I needed a break from my parents for a while. I was not interested in hanging out....I would reach out to THEM when I was ready. That what I was dealing with was not going to get better in a week or even months. I don't have a cold. I am recovering from a LIFETIME of trauma, much of the worst of which came back to me only very recently and BADLY destabilized me. And....they were perpetrators of a good deal of my trauma themselves!! I do NOT want to spend this time I am supposed to be healing....with 2 of my primary abusers!! 2 of the people who greatly contributed to the issues I have today! They are OBLIVIOUS! He sent me another text just now literally the week after I sent that text explaining that asking me to get lunch with him!! HELL no! I am just ignoring him from now on.
Their repeated ignoring of my boundaries is only further ruining their chances of EVER repairing things with me. My skin is crawling. I fucking NEED to get out of this damn house. Fuck.
They do NOT just want to spend time with me!! They want to keep using me as a therapist and nurse and marital counselor and whatever else! Every time I have told my dad I didn't want to hang out he would say "well I was just going to talk about the doctor we are having your mom see" or "I wanted your opinion on this..." etc. I don't give a shit!! I am not doing all that for them anymore!!
The last week he texted me asking to get lunch. I told him I needed a break from my parents for a while. I was not interested in hanging out....I would reach out to THEM when I was ready. That what I was dealing with was not going to get better in a week or even months. I don't have a cold. I am recovering from a LIFETIME of trauma, much of the worst of which came back to me only very recently and BADLY destabilized me. And....they were perpetrators of a good deal of my trauma themselves!! I do NOT want to spend this time I am supposed to be healing....with 2 of my primary abusers!! 2 of the people who greatly contributed to the issues I have today! They are OBLIVIOUS! He sent me another text just now literally the week after I sent that text explaining that asking me to get lunch with him!! HELL no! I am just ignoring him from now on.
Their repeated ignoring of my boundaries is only further ruining their chances of EVER repairing things with me. My skin is crawling. I fucking NEED to get out of this damn house. Fuck.
