I Have Ptsd

I've spent an eternity trying to forget terrible moments of my life.
But my mind replays what my heart is not capable of deleting.
It's not that I refuse to let go of the past, but the past refuses to let go of me.

And just when you think you are in a good place, the smallest trigger sends you crashing down once more.
I've tried to run away from my problems, I've tried denial. But you just can't escape your own mind no matter how hard you try.
You try to escape that horrible nightmare that is your mind, but then you come to realize that nightmare has now become part of your everyday life.