Struggles with my ocd

So a lot of my struggles with yesterday are because of my OCD. It makes it hard or impossible to do things in public. So yesterday when Joel got home I told him about my long day. And instead of getting upset with me, or mad or making fun of me. He just sat next to me took my hand and said well know we know we have to really work on your coping skills for this so next time it won't be so hard on you.

I really don't deserve this man.
My crazy is going to scary him away one day.

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F Best Comment

From my limited perspective, you both seem to be there for each other through everything. You share kindness, you're responsible, understanding and sweet to each other. I know it's scary when you have issues, people do run from you, I've experienced similar...

But he knows what to do. Exactly how to soften the harshness of reality. And it's obvious you do the same for him.

You are actually pretty inspiring. I wish I could find a love like that. It's beautiful what you have and I can't imagine him not loving you because of your struggles when he knows what a wonderful person you are beyond that.

Cigarguy · M

@ScreamingFox oh wow thank you for your kind words. I'm just trying to do my best and most days I feel like I'm failing. But I'm trying to get better. It's just takes time

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Cigarguy it does take time and he believes in you. He recognizes he's lucky to have you, I think because he has his own struggles that you support him through. You are there for each other. Your families are blended. It's something some of us can only dream of.

I hope you can let go of some of the doubt. Again, I get it, plenty of people have abandoned me. But he shows up for you time and time again. He's not tired of you, he's committed to you and I think you both have experienced enough heartbreak to understand how much it means to stick together.

Lots of people here believe in you too. Believe in you both and respect how you put your family first.

Thank you for BC, just know every word is from the heart.