AuDHD & OCD. ERP (CBT) Didn't help. I'm thinking of EMDR therapy. (I have Pure-O and Real Event OCD)
Docdon23 · M
I am doing EMDR now and find it very helpful!! I do not have OCD and am not neurodivergent. I do it for the impact some horrible childhood experiences have had on me--i grew up with an abusive alcoholic father who beat me and gave me low self esteem.
CloudAngel80 · 41-45, F
Ever heard of celebrate recovery?
I have your same diagnosis, and trust me, i was supremely pleased with God in my recent experience. It is bible based 12 step program, with 8 principles to life. They are difficult at first, because giving up control to others, being submisdive to others, realizing life is not yours..theres so many people teaching and preaching medical thereapy, but nobody PROFESSIONALS wise, coukd help my irrational thought or behaviors let alone classify why i did or said or felt!
Trauma is real, but God is over it too!
From counting to checking locks, to stressful impulsive decisions, God covered it all.
Now im 7 yrs clean from 27 different physc and anxiety meds, 2 yrs into the program, and im glowing again.
Celebrate recovery dot com.
Find a local chapter in your area, at least check it out..what can it hurt to finally recieve help?
Ill pray for you!
I have your same diagnosis, and trust me, i was supremely pleased with God in my recent experience. It is bible based 12 step program, with 8 principles to life. They are difficult at first, because giving up control to others, being submisdive to others, realizing life is not yours..theres so many people teaching and preaching medical thereapy, but nobody PROFESSIONALS wise, coukd help my irrational thought or behaviors let alone classify why i did or said or felt!
Trauma is real, but God is over it too!
From counting to checking locks, to stressful impulsive decisions, God covered it all.
Now im 7 yrs clean from 27 different physc and anxiety meds, 2 yrs into the program, and im glowing again.
Celebrate recovery dot com.
Find a local chapter in your area, at least check it out..what can it hurt to finally recieve help?
Ill pray for you!
GoldenOldie · 31-35, M
@CloudAngel80 Thanks; but no thanks. I'm an Athiest. Also; I don't appreciate my mental health post being de-railed with religious-content.
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FibetyJibets · 46-50, MNew
Ahem. You mentioned autism. Let me guess: noise problems...of other peoples' uninvited, unwanted, unwelcomed noises that violate your inner self?!!! If this is the case????? you know if it is. If you have problems with the noises, touches, changes, lighting changes, smells, pressures, movements and whereabouts and presence of other people , and in any of those listed, that are uninvited, unwelcomed, unwanted, intrusive, invasive, and that you feel viserally violated by, THEN YOU LIKELY HAVE TRESPASS SENSITIVITY TO TRESPASSING VIOLATING ACTS AND BEHAVIORS OF OTHERS AND WHAT EXTENDS FROM THEM THAT VIOLATED AND INTRUDES, SUCH AS THEIR NOISES. my capitals were emphasis, not "yelling" as some think. I have heard people again and again describe O.C.D. as a monster and other such descriptions, but anyone having problems with exposure therapy not helping, which never helps with trespass sensitivities, makes me suspect trespass sensitivity, which is highly autistic and self protective in nature. FibetyJibets, July 29, 2025
GoldenOldie · 31-35, M
@FibetyJibets hmm I’m not triggered or upset by noise. I dislike noisy pubs and it fucks with my focus and concentration
I have never he’s of trespass sensitivity myself? My main bugbear is real event-OCD
I had heard EMDR helps a number of autistic people who have “OCD” I got diagnosed 16-17 years back as having OCD
(Real Event OCD subtype)
Specifically with my OCD:
***
A stranger online gaslighted me using multiple fake personas to make me feel “responsible” for “two friends are trying to kill themselves” and made it look like a pile-on attack was happening to me. I ended up quitting the site…
I had a breakdown, I couldn’t sit my exam, I kept worrying that these “friends” had *died* 💀 of their injuries. Yearssss later I found out that the fake accounts (didn’t know was fake at the time) that was then messaging me were all using pics of scene kid models. They were *all* fake accounts in other words!
Problem is - it f**ks with my head… still!😢
But even though I know the accounts are all fake - I can’t *prove* what they *said* was a f**ked up lie; or can I?
I kinda seek certainty, closure or weird-reassurance in messed up ways like researching the fake accounts, combing obits and trawling mortality databases and dark shit that makes me feel temporary relief (but only sometimes) mostly the toxic guilt and sense of anxiety over: “was I responsible?”
F**ks with my head! I kinda deep-down *want* to accept that some messed up teenager halfway around the globe was trolling me with multiple fakes because they themselves are f**ked up in the head…
I know facts about the culprit themselves btw. They are a horrible person.
I found the user on an anon-forum and they *admitted* (I tricked her into trusting me) to having 200 accounts, moving these fakes of theirs from MySpace to Facebook (Feb ‘09 MySpace was where it happened; my “event” date) and pretty much they admitted to making lies (a few I know of are; taking a models car-crash photos to pass off as their own car crash. Taking photos of a baby in an open casket to pass off as their own child loss. Taking gross, graphic SH pics off some sick-online-challenge to pass off as theirs. Taking pics of babies and kids to pass off as theirs. They pretty much they said they faked a s**cide “attempt” with one girl (a fake) that might not be my experience, so it adds questions (my experience involved “two friends” tryin’ to k*ll thems*lves and potentially dying💀 - that’s my biggest fear; someone actually dying - which is f**ked-up because in order for it to be true I need to believe that a bunch of fake accounts told me the *truth* - which is extremely unlikely)
So yeah… rant/vent/dump over…
I have never he’s of trespass sensitivity myself? My main bugbear is real event-OCD
I had heard EMDR helps a number of autistic people who have “OCD” I got diagnosed 16-17 years back as having OCD
(Real Event OCD subtype)
Specifically with my OCD:
***
A stranger online gaslighted me using multiple fake personas to make me feel “responsible” for “two friends are trying to kill themselves” and made it look like a pile-on attack was happening to me. I ended up quitting the site…
I had a breakdown, I couldn’t sit my exam, I kept worrying that these “friends” had *died* 💀 of their injuries. Yearssss later I found out that the fake accounts (didn’t know was fake at the time) that was then messaging me were all using pics of scene kid models. They were *all* fake accounts in other words!
Problem is - it f**ks with my head… still!😢
But even though I know the accounts are all fake - I can’t *prove* what they *said* was a f**ked up lie; or can I?
I kinda seek certainty, closure or weird-reassurance in messed up ways like researching the fake accounts, combing obits and trawling mortality databases and dark shit that makes me feel temporary relief (but only sometimes) mostly the toxic guilt and sense of anxiety over: “was I responsible?”
F**ks with my head! I kinda deep-down *want* to accept that some messed up teenager halfway around the globe was trolling me with multiple fakes because they themselves are f**ked up in the head…
I know facts about the culprit themselves btw. They are a horrible person.
I found the user on an anon-forum and they *admitted* (I tricked her into trusting me) to having 200 accounts, moving these fakes of theirs from MySpace to Facebook (Feb ‘09 MySpace was where it happened; my “event” date) and pretty much they admitted to making lies (a few I know of are; taking a models car-crash photos to pass off as their own car crash. Taking photos of a baby in an open casket to pass off as their own child loss. Taking gross, graphic SH pics off some sick-online-challenge to pass off as theirs. Taking pics of babies and kids to pass off as theirs. They pretty much they said they faked a s**cide “attempt” with one girl (a fake) that might not be my experience, so it adds questions (my experience involved “two friends” tryin’ to k*ll thems*lves and potentially dying💀 - that’s my biggest fear; someone actually dying - which is f**ked-up because in order for it to be true I need to believe that a bunch of fake accounts told me the *truth* - which is extremely unlikely)
So yeah… rant/vent/dump over…
I don't know how to say this, but if you have an acronym or name for everything and are sensitive you are going to find every reason under the sun to be depressed. I have never figured out how those who are supposed to be those who help you have not figured out
GoldenOldie · 31-35, M
@awildsheepschase okay. I have OCD the thing I have OCD about happened; real event. Pure Obsessive is pure obsessional, so I don't have a "ritual" its happening in my head
Pretty much the acronyms were there so it wasn't a giant post. I can unpack it here though:
Pretty much the acronyms were there so it wasn't a giant post. I can unpack it here though:
@GoldenOldie But is unpacking it in thought helping you? I never talked about rituals
GoldenOldie · 31-35, M
@awildsheepschase
Hmm I don't understand then? I kinda don't feel wallowing in depression. I'm actively seeking peer-advice and peer-perspectives?
I guess I viewed this as a site to meet people with similar experiences?
How did you relate to my post. I'm guessing alongside your OCD you have Autism, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder or both?
Also without acronyms it is:
"I tried Cognitive Behavioural Therapy/ Exposure Response Prevention therapy; multiple time with no-benefit. I'm Autistic with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. (Autism and Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) I probably have Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder too from trauma
My Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is pure-O and Real Event-Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder; so kinda atypical-Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder :/
UK National Health Service; Exposure and Response Prevention therapy seems the only therapy offered for Obsessive-compulsive disorder. I wish alternatives existed; Exposure Response Prevention is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and potentially Neurodivergent people don't always get much relief from it. I know others that found it didn't help. Its the "gold standard" but if it doesn't or can't help you the medical service feels like it gaslights you into feeling lazy or just offers more of the same! It takes ages on the NHS. I had a remission window and then it came back with a vengeance! My life is pretty much 24/7 enslaved to Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder.
I'm thinking of looking into Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. Similarly diagnosed (autistic, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and Obsessive-compulsive disorder) Neurodivergent friends and acquaintances have recommended it; it might get to the root rather than the symptoms, thoughts? Exposure Response Prevention felt formulaic and it didn't really go deep into my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder "trauma"
Pure-O and Real Event Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is an horrible combination! Any thoughts on EMDR therapy from anyone Neurodivergent with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? I'd appreciate insights!"
--too much of a mouthful for most to read. Hence acronyms and common names
Hmm I don't understand then? I kinda don't feel wallowing in depression. I'm actively seeking peer-advice and peer-perspectives?
I guess I viewed this as a site to meet people with similar experiences?
How did you relate to my post. I'm guessing alongside your OCD you have Autism, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder or both?
Also without acronyms it is:
"I tried Cognitive Behavioural Therapy/ Exposure Response Prevention therapy; multiple time with no-benefit. I'm Autistic with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. (Autism and Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) I probably have Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder too from trauma
My Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is pure-O and Real Event-Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder; so kinda atypical-Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder :/
UK National Health Service; Exposure and Response Prevention therapy seems the only therapy offered for Obsessive-compulsive disorder. I wish alternatives existed; Exposure Response Prevention is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and potentially Neurodivergent people don't always get much relief from it. I know others that found it didn't help. Its the "gold standard" but if it doesn't or can't help you the medical service feels like it gaslights you into feeling lazy or just offers more of the same! It takes ages on the NHS. I had a remission window and then it came back with a vengeance! My life is pretty much 24/7 enslaved to Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder.
I'm thinking of looking into Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. Similarly diagnosed (autistic, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and Obsessive-compulsive disorder) Neurodivergent friends and acquaintances have recommended it; it might get to the root rather than the symptoms, thoughts? Exposure Response Prevention felt formulaic and it didn't really go deep into my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder "trauma"
Pure-O and Real Event Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is an horrible combination! Any thoughts on EMDR therapy from anyone Neurodivergent with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? I'd appreciate insights!"
--too much of a mouthful for most to read. Hence acronyms and common names