I broke down and took my first Zoloft today 😞

I’ve had the prescription for about six months now. I’ve been terrified to take it. I’ve been waiting to get into therapy. But no one has called me yet. I’m at my wits end. I can’t take the anxiety and intrusive thought loops anymore. So I broke down and took the pill. With no love or support from my so-called partner. Hes telling me that he doesn’t support it. Thinks it’s a bad idea. I’m like what other options do I have? I feel like I’m completely losing control of myself and am in a very dark place. I need to do something. And I need support and love from somebody along the way. I feel so alone.

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robertsnj · 56-60, M

looks like that was 14 hours ago. how are you doing now? Why do you think you partner is opposed to Zoloft? What was his alternative solution? sorry for your pain.

DisarrayedNightshade · 36-40, F

@robertsnj thank you for reaching out and showing compassion. I’m still not feeling the best. He doesn’t believe in pharmaceuticals. He has a pretty weird obscure view on mental health. Thanks it’s all trauma based. And it can be healed with things like meditation and psychedelics. The hippie dippy new wave shit. And I’ve tried alternative healing. Microdoseing. But it doesn’t help. And when I get into manic states things like meditation don’t help. And I try to explain these things to him and he won’t listen to me. He says it’s a bullshit cop at excuse and I’m just not trying hard enough and I’m not putting in the work or this and that. I’ve been to multiple therapists. Multiple doctors. And I’ve been prescribed medication. I don’t really know what else to do. And he says I’m not doing anything to better myself.

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DisarrayedNightshade · 36-40, F

@robertsnj sadly I’m pretty alone. I don’t have any family. Mom‘s dead. Never met my dad. Don’t really have any buddy. I have a couple of friends that I talk to for support sometimes and I have a cat, that’s about it.