I broke down and took my first Zoloft today 😞

I’ve had the prescription for about six months now. I’ve been terrified to take it. I’ve been waiting to get into therapy. But no one has called me yet. I’m at my wits end. I can’t take the anxiety and intrusive thought loops anymore. So I broke down and took the pill. With no love or support from my so-called partner. Hes telling me that he doesn’t support it. Thinks it’s a bad idea. I’m like what other options do I have? I feel like I’m completely losing control of myself and am in a very dark place. I need to do something. And I need support and love from somebody along the way. I feel so alone.

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uncalled4 · 56-60, M

I can tell you that I had OCD w/unwanted thoughts. Zoloft didn't work for me, but Lexapro did(plus therapy of course). Have not had them since, and was not on Lex very long.

I love the non-med people, would they not take BP or heart medication because "it's a bad idea"? Why exactly? Is he a doctor or mental health professional? If not, he needs to STFU.

DisarrayedNightshade · 36-40, F

@uncalled4 I know medication is different for everyone. I’ve talked to a few people that swear by Zoloft for their OCD. I’m trying to have high hopes that it will be positive for me. And most non-med people are ego driven know it alls. Think they have the right answers. Know what’s best for everyone. And they are not even doctors or mental health professionals. So yes, I agree that they do need to STFU

uncalled4 · 56-60, M

@DisarrayedNightshade Initially, I was resistant to the idea of meds, relying on CBT to take care of it. But once I found that I could not muzzle the beast, I was all for trying something new.

DisarrayedNightshade · 36-40, F

@uncalled4 i’ve been to multiple therapists. With no help. I’ve tried psilocybin (mushrooms) with no real success either. It drives me absolutely insane. When people are like “ Oh I took one trip and it cured me” Bullshit. I’ve eaten so many psychedelics and my head is still fucked. So I am to the point now where I am breaking down and trying antidepressants for the first time. And honestly it’s terrifying. Tried the therapy route no help. Tried the psychedelic route no help. So I guess medication is my only option now.

uncalled4 · 56-60, M

@DisarrayedNightshade I think the odds are in your favor.

DisarrayedNightshade · 36-40, F

@uncalled4 thank you I really hope so. But not having someone to love and support me along the way is pretty difficult.

uncalled4 · 56-60, M

@DisarrayedNightshade I went through a divorce during my ordeal. I had little of a support system. That means you can do it no matter what.